Lights, Camera, Action! Well, camera and action…

Today was the shoot for the TUC Playfair Qatar campaign video I’m working on. Producing, writing, shooting, editing – it’s the all singing, all dancing package, for a noble cause. While not by any means my first rodeo, it’s the first thing I’ve done entirely independently for a client. Which is nice, if a wee bit daunting. Knowing you can do something and knowing you will are two very different things.

All things considered, it’s gone quite smoothly thus far. Thought I and my co-producer at the TUC have been insanely busy with other simultaneous projects (because of course), we managed to organise a shoot for a fairly complicated concept quickly and with minimum fuss.

And the shoot? So tidy. The actors – adults and children alike, were just on it – I didn’t need more than a couple of takes of anything, which sped things up considerably. I did send my runner home once we got to set upon discovering that he was still suffering the ill-effects of an unfortunate bout of food poisoning, but luckily I was able to get another on-site within a couple of hours. Even in the cold and wet, everyone handled the discomfort like a pro, and what’s more, had a really great time. It was a fun shoot, from start to finish.

Can I take credit for the smooth sailing so far? With film, one relies so much on the skill and talent of others, it is fundamentally collaborative. That said, I think I can claim at the least good planning, and luck in my choice of colleagues. So far.

So now that the footage from today is backed up, and looks alright from a quick glance through, surely I should be able to take a breather, and catch some well-earned sleep before diving into the edit.

And yet, here I am, tossing and turning, mentally reviewing the footage and cutting in my head.

Several years ago when I was just starting out, I interviewed for a director’s assistant gig. At one point, as they inevitably do, they asked if I had any questions, and of course you must. I can’t remember what I said, but I do remember the director answered, essentially, that there is no time when he isn’t working on the film – it’s always on his mind: in the shower, eating lunch, sleeping, during conversations about totally separate things.

With every project I make the truth of it always comes back to me. Until you know it’s finished, you just keep puzzling over it relentlessly. It’s as if, knowing how many decisions need to be made to get to the final cut, your brain devotes every spare synapse to the problems at hand. It’s a bit like having a neighbour who constantly has the radio on. You can tune it out, if you try, but you can never really turn it off. And in quiet moments, that background murmur might as well be a brass band.

And yet. How fun.

Two plays in two days – and that was just me

After my delight in directing at the inaugural London 14/48, I was determined to join the next round in Leicester. It’s downright addictive, and I thought I might have a go at the acting side of things. Because if there’s anything I love more than theatre, it’s novelty.

“I memorise quickly” I thought, “I can take it.”

Hubris?

You betcha.

Acting is an entirely different beast from directing at 14/48 – though success and happiness demand the same trust in the process, and your fellow actors.

With directing, there is at least the sense of relief that you aren’t actually the one on stage (though of course, if you’ve invested yourself in the work you are, it’s just that not everyone cottons on. It’s like when you’re in a dream and you’re watching yourself from the outside but feeling everything on the inside).

With acting, there is no watching from a safe distance. You’re under the lights in a room full of people and either you get them into your world, or not. And if you fail, well, then you’ve got ten torturous minutes of people suffering through your incompetence.

No pressure then, right?

I lucked out (I mean, all of the plays would have been great fun to be in – and I wanted to collaborate with literally every actor there – but the fates handed me two roles that were just made for me, and perfect co-actors). In the lottery both days I was cast in Jess Green’s plays – well structured, great characters, and boy howdy, that second night play about Workfare? I mean, damn. Smart, surprisingly poignant political theatre written overnight (directed with sharp insight by 14/48 Wolverhampton producer Neil Reading) and delivering an emotional punch and rich political arguments in under 10 minutes? That, my friends, is impressive. Shaw, eat your heart out.

Also, I sweet-talked my way into ad-libbing a couple of closing lines with winking communism jests. And I snuck in ‘I am the Walrus’ into the second show on the first night. Because apparently I am secretly dying to be a stand-up. One of my selfish joys of the weekend is that people were actually laughing (sincerely, or at least in a convincing imitation of sincerity) at all [ed-most] of my quips and witticisms.

What I loved about London 14/48 is that it distilled everything I love about theatre – focus, energy, creativity, and trusting collaboration. In Leicester, I was further seduced by the warmth and acceptance and (dare I say it) genius of the community as a whole. All these good, lovely, talented people brought together by a shared passion to create. If I listed everyone who kinda blew my mind I’d essentially be reprinting the programme.

And while it’s impossible to be surrounded by so much capability without feeling the occasional twinge (or more) of envy, the inclusiveness of all involved turns jealousy to pride. Because if these are your people, then their success is yours, too.

As someone who has moved around so frequently in life and is always a little homesick no matter where I am, there was something about being around these people that felt like a homecoming.

It is no small thing in life to recognise when you meet your tribe.

Next up… Wolverhampton?